I fear...

she's not someone whom i always had mind.. but whenever i read about "her" from the various sources.. my heart felt so so heavy. i dunno why. i'm not exactly close to her.. but in my memories she was really sweet & nice to me. she's someone "close to heart".. but yet not. i dunno how to describe this feeling. i fear.. i fear the day when i hear the news that.... it feels like it may happen "anytime". i jus read from somewhere.. and it didn't sound very positive. that scene of jus me and her talking at their house is still so vivid in my mind.. been so so so many years. can't rem what we talked about.. but was jus us. i saw her a few weeks ago.. caught a few glimpse of her.. wanted to go over.. but yet.. i didn't dare to. felt kinda sad.. i'm really touched by how her love ones showered her with love & care.. i wish her well..

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改变 = 跟以往不一样 = 多了什么或少了什么

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the "leap year meet-up" was quite interesting =)

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nothing's constant. your feelings towards something/someone at different phase of your life will turn out different. or maybe that something/someone has also changed over time as well?

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hmmm.. somehow tml feels like a "working day". ha.. okies.. muz do things with joy joy joy! ha.. more deadlines than my actual work =X

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looking forward to the "adventure"!

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*yawn*

love.joy.peace.hope

Was going through some of those old “forwarded emails” which have been archived in my mailbox for many many years.. found this quite meaningful and encouraging.

Indeed…

“There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven (Ecclesiastes 3:1) and we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. (Romans 8:28)”

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Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, they serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are or who you want to become.

You never know who these people may be; your roommate, your neighbor, professor, long lost friend, lover or even a complete stranger who, when you lock eyes with them, you know that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.

And sometimes things happen to you and at the time they seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would never have realized your potential, strength, will power of heart.

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good or bad luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments or true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of the soul.

Without these small tests, events, illnesses or relationships, life would be like a smooth paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. Safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless.

The people you meet, who affect your life.. the successes and downfalls you experience, they are the ones who create who you are. Even the bad experience can be learned from... Those lessons are the hardest and probably the most important ones.

If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart... forgive them, for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart.

If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love and opening your heart and eyes to things you would have never seen or felt without them.

Make every day count. Appreciate every moment and take from it everything that you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again.

Talk to people you have never talked to before, and actually listen, let yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high. You can make of your life anything you wish. Create your own life and then go out and live it.

I wish you all the best in your endeavors as well as struggles in life. Have a fighting spirit and never hesitate to get back in the struggle!

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dripsss and drapsss

new term : "mouldification" -- the act/process of turning mouldy.

that's happening @ work now.

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and i hate it when people poke his nose into other people's business.. plus i can sense the sarcasm.

that's happening @ work now too.

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got pissed early in the morning by an unwelcomed msn msg. =(

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i never believe in pms or mood swings.. but now i do. ha.. guess it comes with age.

or maybe it's caused by the lack of "happy food"?

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i believe in 'self-healing'.. ha.. and i know i'm gifted in this area.

thank god for this.

just me & him and nobody else.

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bleah.. don't seems to work.. can't see the effect.

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am enjoying reading my new pretty devotional bible. hee.

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somehow there's a barrier.. it's not the same.

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walked.. walked for 2 bus stops.. it's a cooling night tonight.

结婚~

attended my uni ex-classmate's wedding last sun.. it didn't turn out as "bad" as i tot. was actually contemplating if i should go..

there are a few scenarios where one will "struggle a bit" when it comes to attending weddings..

1. when u're alone & don't know anyone except the bride/groom.
2. when u've not contacted your friends for ages & having to make conversations with them throughout the dinner.
3. when u've gain like 10kg and having people asking you what happen.
4. when attending an ex-bf/gf's wedding.

it was enjoyable & i’m glad although it has been a while since I last met my “clique”.. the rapport is still there =)

somehow.. I can really at ease with them.

And i’m going on a trip with mc!!! We talked about it one day after the wedding.. and the following day air tix are booked!

my new quote! "spontaneity makes things happen"

sometimes when we "think about it".. we'll miss the "moment" & things will never actualize.

really looking forward to the trip.. cos it's not the usual "eat and shop" holiday.. and the tot that there's only 2 of us makes it more exciting! Ha.. bought travel insurance le! =P

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new places, new people, new perspective, new experience, new hope, new life, new insights, new loves, new growth, new.. i need something new!

sometimes taking a new bus route can be quite fun too.

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Weeee.... still got 1 year & 4 months to go!

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i love hortpark! i wanna go there again!